People says that experience is the best teacher. Now I understand, because lately I learned a lot from my experiences. Live in one environment which totally strange for you is a challenge. Especially when you are being a minority in one majority countries. My Korean friend said that we were just like Monkey in the Zoo. Everywhere you go, thousand eyes will follow your moves. The thing that most noticeable felt different is the use of Hijab. I am muslimah, wearing my hijab is an obligatory. That is everything to me because it showed my true identity. Yet, as I told you before, it wasn't easy in the beginning. Sometimes, I'm feeling isolated, and so weird, but sometimes I'm feeling grateful that I'm different. Because you know what, as time goes by the people started asking me questions instead of talking behind. At that moment, one by one of their curiosity was answered. Then maybe they are starting understand the reason behind my Hijab. Here, you will find a lot of happiness when you suddenly think that you are a great Muslimah Agent :) *even I am not expert yet in this kind of thing, but at least I can convince them what am I hold into.
Also, life is never leave the love behind. I have a bad idea which in a glance came up to my mind when the first time I decided to go here. I left my family back home, of course. Actually it hurts, because it means I will spent my parents money again and again. Yet, their supports made me doubtless and confident. They are hanging a great hope and big dreams to me in order me to gain and have a better future by flying here. Hence, what I have to do now is trying and doing my best in everything, to prevent any regret that somehow will appear in the future. Then I left my beloved friends, but I know it doesn't a big deal because everyone now is busy in achieving their each dreams. I wish you all the best guys!
And last but not least, maybe it sounds over but trust me it is what really out from the heart. Every of you is definitely have someone who wanted to be with. So do I. Before coming here, my heart argued a lot, between leave or stay. And finally I decide to leave. In truth, it is called as one sided, because I'm the only one who was so hard to leave. Well to be honest, it's a bit hurt and I deserve better. But in the end, my heart choose to let it flow, not demanding for someone better, but asking to be sincere in facing the reality and being busy to be more productive instead of thinking somebody. However, the most grateful thing is that lately everything is running well..