Adulthood

Have you ever felt like the world was turning away? I think all adults must have felt it even for once.

And I wonder why adults are given this kind of sense, while I think the fairytale and its happiness-ever-after was real.

However, everyone who on the same age like me is currently stepping on this phase. Welcome to adulthood! The time of life when someone has regarded as independent, mature, and brave enough to take responsibility on every actions that he/she does. Sounds creepy but this is real.

Unlike childhood, having faith on the fairytale, huge castle, prince charming white horse, magic, pixy dust and things were allowed. Shaped those lies inside little me made me grows with that faith. And maybe not only me. I was wondering what my future looks like? Will it bloom like a gigantic rose? or will it just stay the same like the grass?

We do choose our faith. But sometimes faith becomes a funny thing. It turns up when you don't expect anything, but turns you down when you really expect a thing. And it applies to people for sure. Once in a while, people will surprise you even people also can take your breath away.. This is how adulthood works. 

The pain you feel, the ignorance you get, the pressure you bear are the color to your life. We build the future in a real life, not a future in the fairytale. Even those fairy tale might affect people when they grew up, but in adulthood, one day you'll realize that fairy tale maybe slightly different than you dreamed of. It may not a castle or a prince charming with his white horse, and it's not important to be happy ever-after. The thing that we will realize  is to do the best in every corner of our lives. 

It might hard to make everyone happy, because everything you do will be judged. Therefore, adulthood teachs you how to do everything that will ease your heart with those responsibility things. If you find that life is hard already, why do we bring more troubledown on ourselves by thinking unnecessary things?

Maybe because we just like the pain? or we just couldn't feel real? 

That is why, like what benjamin franklin meant, that knowing is better than wondering, waking is better than sleeping, and that even the biggest failure, the worst, the most intractable mistake, the beast is the hell out of never trying!

I should finally understand that even my fairytale was a lie, my reality must be greater even with a thousand burdens, obstacles, pains, and complaints. Because you know what, we have Allah, and when we do, everything will be easier, InshaAllah..